Have you ever had the satiric part of one of your suicide notes, you know the part where you parody all those chipper “live in the now” people, read out loud as encouragement while you were on the floor in a college ballroom surrounded by students who were lying on their backs and breathing themselves … Continue reading lye
I Love You. I think that might just be the thing that most people don't understand about me. I may be cynical, cutting and conceptual, but I don't do that because I want to take away your hope, slice you down to size, or dismiss your emotions. I do it because I love you, and … Continue reading I Love You
I was recently hit by an old friend who told me that while I spoke to the marginalized, she spoke to ALL trans people (the caps are hers.) You know if you look at the stats on this blog, or the impact of anything else I write, you will quickly understand that I am speaking … Continue reading Speaking Of
I told a friend that the Legendary Alexandra Billings had commented postively on a post I wrote. “Maybe she likes your rage,” my friend said. My rage. Raging, Outraged, Outrageous. It’s where the most scary intensity lies. My rage as a teen was strong. I once kicked a hole in the drywall with my foot. … Continue reading Maybe She Likes Your Rage
I just don’t understanding living in your body. I mean, it’s not that I don’t understand that other people do that, that they lead from their body, their Eros and passion rooted in physicality. I get that this is almost common enough to be the rule, and I also affirm that truth. Hell, I loved … Continue reading Plop
So this is what I need to know: my feelings count. Hell, as a femme, my feelings are at the heart of who I am, and to deny them is to deny myself. I told my sister how I felt about Friday with the car, starting with a sticker check and ending with locking eyes … Continue reading Ouch!
What You Need To Know About My Transgender 1) My transgender is about my work, my calling. 2) The challenge for me is becoming product. 3) The hardest thing about trans is doing it alone. 4) The most difficult thing about trans is negotiating others fears. 5) The most painful thing about trans is not … Continue reading notes for a session
The Private Story What’s the opposite of life affirming? Life denying? Life erasing? Life destroying? Catharsis isn’t always healing. That was a surprise to the people at Kripalu Yoga Center in the Berkshires who ran a bizarre mixture of Ashram Light and “Inner Child” pop psychology called “Inner Quest Intensive.” Luckily, though, they didn’t have … Continue reading Resisting Calling To the Point Of Self Destruction