All you need to do to be a prophet is to listen more to the still, small voice of your creator, leading from the voice that transcends nice, compliant normalcy. This doesn’t necessarily make you a good prophet, as the voice you hear might be twisted, dark, ego laden, full of pain & vengeance and … Continue reading Price Of Prophecy
Some have called this “performative spirituality,” which I think is a good designation, as long as we understand clearly: there is no other kind. https://internetmonk.com/archive/59235 Jenny Brien offered up gifts when responding to yesterdays post, including an announcement of her presence, of her being touched by my work, a moving poem she created that … Continue reading Bloody Gifts
A piece of my mind is also a piece of my heart. Years and years and years ago, a counsellor with an HMO made me an offer. “We are a full service organization,” he said. “If you want, I can just check a box on this form and get you a lobotomy. Is that something … Continue reading A Piece Of My Mind
Every writer is shaped by the restrictions placed on them. These may be as broad as having to write in English to the expectations of the audience for the genre being written Knowing the rules is always the way to know where breaking the rules might be effective, opening up more space. Operating without rules … Continue reading Factual
“I used a few of your pearls of wisdom in a group,” ShamanGal told me. “They all thought they were wonderful, that I was so smart.” “That’s good,” I replied. “Even though they thought they were cool, most of the people didn’t really understand them, though. Rather than letting them sink in, they just went … Continue reading Thank You For Sharing
I am more present than meets the eye. This is the challenge with awareness, the truth that you are aware of things that most people just ignore, take for granted or even have no clue that they exist. Their normal levels of latent inhibition keep the decks clear and their outlook simple. Some of those … Continue reading More Present
Transwomen know that one of the obligations they have in the world is to make part of themselves invisible, to get it out of the way so that they can more easily be seen as women. In a world where gender is seen as a matter of the body, poles vs holes, many people assume … Continue reading Make Invisible
To be happy, all we have to do is change our relationship with the world. Sadly, the comfortable way of doing this, changing the world so it caters more to us, isn’t really practical. Instead, damnit, we have to change ourselves to be more effective in relationship with the world. For transpeople, this usually requires … Continue reading With The World
If I was going to try and support me, I would try to help me believe that I have agency over more than just my inner life. For someone who grew up in a highly enmeshed relationship with a narcissistic, emotionally detached (Aspergers) mother, a codependent and emotionally detached (Aspergers) father & sister, and massive … Continue reading Inner Potent, Outer Lost
At Halloween, the veil between the worlds is thin, so thin that we can see between this world and the world of the ancestors. When you engage your ability to see like a shaman, your vision not blocked by conventional walls of separation, your experience of being in the world changes. The world opens up … Continue reading Shaman Eye
Never waste a good question, I always say. I can spend days chewing on a good question, even if bereavement lady doesn’t understand how I both trust my relationship with the creator, if not with creation, and squeeze every scrap of support I get for all I can wring from it. The question asked at … Continue reading So, What Would Feel Good?
“Do you want to be scary bright?” the bereavement counsellor asked. Apparently, she doesn’t remember me telling her about my eulogy for my father. I told the story of how, in fifth grade, when the teacher had the class vote against my understanding of a scientific principle, but I held my ground, turning out to … Continue reading Iconoclast
So Barbara Walters is making the rounds to sell her book Audition — she feels she has always been auditioning. Her “reason” for writing the book, she says, is that young women tell her that they want to be her, and she wants them to know not only the benefits but the cost of her … Continue reading Gotta Love
I woke up from this dream where I had found a community that was trans-supportive and moved there, happy to be somewhere positive. I started going around town and people would tell me what I needed to to do, what I needed to change to be happy. All this advice was about fitting in, getting … Continue reading Home Dreaming
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