Magic, from the outside, looks magical. Bam! Poof! Alacazam! Transformation happens, amazement ensues, and everybody is happy! Is there any wonder why people who never really wanted to be a tranny in the first place (2006) dream of that kind of magic happening in their lives? They want the magical transformations that they imagined, and … Continue reading Bloody Magic
Over the years I have written a number of character sketches of “Callan” in this space. Most of these were meant as a kind of marketing exercise; could I shape a description of someone who would be strong, focused and attractive to connect with? The art of marketing is oversimplification, as Ries & Trout reminded … Continue reading Characteristic
Babies are awash in sensation. It is a time in our lives when we experience through our senses of touch, taste, warmth and cold. We know when we feel bad and when we feel good, know how to surrender to being taken care of nicely, know how to cry out when something distresses us. With … Continue reading SensationFail
Callan, when I see your deep emotions spark out from behind the elegant rational cloak you have fashioned, I am usually touched and moved. Sometimes it is hard to remember that even when you play the breeches role, acting as a man to serve the process, the energy behind that comes from a profound feminine … Continue reading Shards of Callan 2019
David Letterman recently spoke to the New York Times about Donald Trump. He was incensed that someone who treated other people, especially those less fortunate than he is, in such a reprehensible way has any credibility left whatsoever. The secret to Dave is simple. Underneath that cranky, curmudgeon façade, the old cuss is just a … Continue reading Opaque & Obtuse
I always knew I wasn’t a straight gal. I knew myself to have a feminine heart, yes, but I also knew that my head didn’t turn, my heart didn’t race over the presence of hot guys. Back in the first days of the trans rush, the 1960s, having an orientation like mine would disqualify you … Continue reading Double Queer
Here is a big secret about me: I am a fantastic date. I know, I know. I don’t look like I would be a good date. I’m smart and challenging, big and intense and queer as hell. I’m not the person you would pick out of an app to go out with, whoever you are. … Continue reading Respect The Bubble
As we grow up, we start to understand what has been missing in our life and we begin to search for it. For some of us, we are lucky enough to find someone to give it to us, but for many of us we have to learn to invoke it in ourselves, claim it as … Continue reading Someone Had To Be The Mommy
My story is a woman’s story. I know that’s not true for all the stories of transpeople assigned as male at birth or soon thereafter. Many of them knew themselves to be men, and still know themselves to be not women. They see themselves as crossdressers, drag queens, sissies, genderqueer or just trans. Good on … Continue reading Je suis une femme.
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