## Bliss Mistake

Yesterday, I wrote of the pain that Lisa Simpson’s writers believe she holds because, unlike the rest of her family,  she doesn’t live in her impulses.

So, when is Lisa happy?

Lisa is happy when she gets out her saxophone and jams.  At that moment, Lisa radiates pure creativity, even if other people find her wails to be just noise.

Or, as Joseph Campbell would say, Lisa is happy when she follows her bliss.  She goes on that journey beyond “should” into zen and she finds her centre.

Lisa doesn’t live in bliss, though.  She lives in a family with Bart and Homer and Marge.  She lives in a school with Nelson, Sherri & Terri, Milhouse and Skinner.   She lives in Springfield.

Maybe, someday, Lisa can get out of town and find someplace where her creativity, her bliss, not only lifts her but also connects her with a community.  Maybe she can find a network of musicians who get her soul and reflect it back to her.  Maybe.

Campbell calls this is the challenge of the return of the gift.  If Springfield really wanted great jazz sax playing, they would already have it.  But as the late Bleeding Gums Murphy knew, jazz is something inside, not something you do because the world really wants it.

Following your bliss opens up the world to you in sublime beauty.  You get to see the connections, the nuances, the patterns, the vibrancy of everything.

Following your bliss, though, doesn’t get you a high-paying corporate job.  It doesn’t even get you a low-paying corporate job.   You do the menial to support your journey, even if doing it means you have to think outside your bliss.

I need to feel where my bliss and the world intersect.   I have done the journey, but I still live in society.   I require what other humans can give me; affirmation, respect, love, money.  The hermetic life has limits, even if we do the deep and difficult practice because it opens us to bliss, moving beyond separation and to connecton in the tiny details of a human life.

Not going out to find that intersection between bliss and community while I was still young, fit and exuberant was my big mistake.  Not that finding a place for a big-boned, big-brained, over-theological and battered transperson ever would have been an easy task, though.

Let me give you a gift that I wish I had when I was younger.

Yes, Yes, Yes, Yes, Yes, Yes, Yes, Yes, Yes, Yes, Yes, Yes, Yes, Yes, Yes, Yes, Yes, Yes, Yes, Yes, Yes, Yes, Yes, Yes, Yes, Yes, Yes, Yes, Yes, Yes, Yes, Yes, Yes, Yes, Yes, Yes, Yes, Yes, Yes, Yes, Yes, Yes, Yes, Yes, Yes, Yes, Yes, Yes, Yes, Yes, Yes, Yes, Yes, Yes, Yes, Yes, Yes, Yes, Yes, Yes, Yes, Yes, Yes, Yes, Yes, Yes, Yes, Yes, Yes, Yes, Yes, Yes, Yes, Yes, Yes, Yes, Yes, Yes, Yes, Yes, Yes, Yes, Yes, Yes, Yes, Yes, Yes, Yes, Yes.

I want you to take those yeses and put them in a safe place.   When you come to a come to a place where you really believe you hear your bliss speaking, really feel the urge to leap, really want to act out of connection, hope and promise, but you feel doubt, questioning, and self-sabotage coming up on you, I want you to get out one of those yeses and use it.

From me, to you, Yes.

Yes. you can open yourself to the world and find connection.

Yes, you can trust your deepest heart knowledge, even when others around you are showing fear.

Yes, you need to find the lessons that your exuberance can teach you.

Yes, you have to care more about blooming than you need to fear losing.

Yes, you can endure loss and rebirth to find joy and abundance.

Yes, letting go is the only way to become new.

Yes, risks will always bring rewards if you let them, even if those rewards are just knowledge and awareness.

Yes, pain is not the enemy, inaction and fear is the enemy.

Yes, you are the perfect, messy, human child of your creator, your mother in the sky.

Yes, you were born with what you need to be happy if you just create your own love around you.

Yes, other people can help you get clear, but in the end, yes, you have to live your own bold life.

Yes.

When you are about to make a bliss mistake and choose to play small and closed in and fearful, take out one of the yeses and use it to move beyond your history and biology, use it to move to creation.

Because you sure as hell are going to have trouble finding people around you who are ready to say yes, yes, yes, yes while they live in their own pragmatic and blinkered fears.