In my years, one thing I have noted is that the biggest defenders of the stealth option for transsxuals are those who haven’t yet emerged into the world.
At that point, they aren’t talking about the reality of walking in the world as a transsexual woman, rather they are defending the dreams they have had since childhood of walking in the world as a girl.
I have often posted this:
When you first come out as a transgendered person,
you spend your first year in absolute euphoria.
Then reality sets in, and you have to make a life and deal with the stigma.
Joan Roughgarden, NY Times Magazine, 9 May 2004
In the end, I usually end up talking about the stigma, but as cockeyed and optomistic as it may be, I can’t disagree that the “absolute euphoria” is important, too.
Success requires “intelligent ignorance.”
One of the greatest joys known to man
is to take a flight into ignorance
in search of knowledge.
All you need in this life
is ignorance and confidence,
and then success is sure.
A person is never happy except at the price of some ignorance.
A system of knowledge is always also a system of ignorance.
Let me here give praise to the ignorance that lets humans start on long and challenging journeys with one step following another.
Problems can only be solved when we move beyond the mindset that created them. And how can we move beyond when we don’t move at all?
The young do not know enough to be prudent,
and therefore they attempt the impossible,
and achieve it,
generation after generation.
Pearl S. Buck
Ms. Rachelle talks about my exquisite self-awareness. It may well be a gift, but it is the flip side of the gift of daring, the ability to say “What the fuck!” and just try something new, bold and fun.
I may be the voice of consideration & awareness, but that doesn’t mean I don’t value bold ignorance & absolute euphoria. As long as they form the basis for a journey of exploration, and not just the core of a defensive fort designed to keep you stuck in a disconnected illusion, the way euphoria & ignorance power leaps into transformation cannot be undervalued.
I missed trusting my gut and leaping, and from where I am now, that seems like quite a loss.
My goal isn’t to be a bubble burster, especially if those bubbles let you float above expectations and become new. I suspect, though, that anyone who finds the notes from my journey dispiriting is looking for something to justify their own inaction, looking for signs of failure.
The biggest burden I carry is holding open the possibility of transforming beyond expectation in the world. But I know that unless I bless that possibility of starting over in others, I deny it to myself.
I know that I can always be surprised, and usually by those who don’t know why they are bound to fail so they end up finding solutions and succeeding.
Here is to intelligent ignorance and absolute euphoria.
May they keep making dreams come true well into the future!