In talking about going through the bubble — that place between where people get that you have a trans history and where they get over it — TBB says that the process changes.
When she walked in the world as a crossdresser, she used to think that she passed all the time. Now she knows she wasn’t passing, rather she was just carrying her own little force field around her and inviting people to enter.
Now that she walks in the world as a mature, graceful and beautiful transwoman, she often assumes that people know she is trans when they just assume she is normative.
Last night at the VFW post, hanging with a pre-op friend, her first karaoke song (did you think TBB could resist a stage & spotlight?) was a gender-neutral James Taylor tune.
A half hour (and a few drinks) later, she went right for the Sinatra.
TBB’s pal was surprised at how well she could perform. The post commander was surprised too, but for different reasons.
“Did your friend, well,” she asked the pal “did she used to be a guy?”
“She’s a woman. Just a transwoman, like me,” the pal said.
Everything was cool, but TBB entered the bubble without knowing it. Two transwomen together, size, whatever, well, she assumed. And since she did, she was comfortable enough to belt Sinatra. Boom the bubble opened.
Comic Magician Carl Ballentine used to play a theater where the manager loved him, and was surprised when the audience didn’t laugh.
“Do you book any other magicians in here?” Ballentine asked.
“No, they are boring.” the manager replied. “I only book you.”
Ballentine understood the problem.
“Book some boring magicians,” he told the manager. “Unless they know magicians, they don’t have any context for me to be funny.”
When you have people who only know one transwoman they don’t have any context to understand the range. TBB is much more together than her friend, so she looked good.
Rumor is that TantraGal is coming to the TransDance tonight after the wine club. We shall see what she sees.
Entering the balloon without knowing it is scary, which ever way it happens, if you think you pass and are wrong, or think you don’t and are wrong. It’s the gotcha we don’t like.
And it’s only in context that trannys can be understood.
Or at least that’s how I understand it.