Jennifer and Chris love each other, but since Jeff started becoming Jennifer, the heat & sizzle of difference has faded away, though the warmth & comfort of sharing is still present.
Jennifer imagines what it would be like to have the attentions of a man, to be treated like a princess, and Chris, well, she doesn’t think genital reconstruction is something she could tolerate.
They both, well, they both seem to miss the heat of focus, that affirmation of not just being a good friend, but also being hot, special and precious to someone.
It’s hard to see something we also have as being precious. Lezlie notes that fewer actors have taken her up on coaching, and I told her that trannies don’t see me as special — I just have what they believe that they have. It’s when others have what we don’t have that they are precious. Women have enough girl friends, which is why gay guys, who can be funny, understanding and also handsome & strong are valued.
Tracy Ullman played a gay flight attendant, noting that when “he” got the attention of another flight attendant, played by the awesome Joanna Gleason, it felt great.
Yeah. It feels great to be seen as being special & precious, unique & valued, worthy of devoted attention for what we alone can offer.
And I suspect that someday, Jennifer will have to go out and try to find that attention.
I do know, though, that feeling others hold me as special & precious, well, that’s something I do crave, and having craved, feel the need to dismiss.