What You Need To Know About My Transgender
1) My transgender is about my work, my calling.
2) The challenge for me is becoming product.
3) The hardest thing about trans is doing it alone.
4) The most difficult thing about trans is negotiating others fears.
5) The most painful thing about trans is not being able to give your gifts and have them accepted.
6) I know that I will never be female, or ever have a girlhood.
7) I am not two people.
8) I am not typical of current transgender thought.
9) The challenge is to both be defended and open.
“Too Hip For The Room”
How do transwomen take power?
Fallen off the grid.
Living In The Question: Liminal
Extraordinarily High Pain Levels
The Denial Cycle
Being Dead: Katie
Slam My Head
Killers: The Skunk Eye & The Mud.
Low levels of latent inhibition.
Concealment vs Revelation
Every choice considered: Performance.
Human doing, not being.
“I know they will like me if I give them what they want.”
The Sexy Bits: Desire Shift
“Affirmed & Valued, Understood & Desired”
It’s my fault.
I’m stupid, because I don’t know how to satisfy others.
Finding a voice, being exposed
The challenge of being Post Therapy
The lack of play.
Who heals the healers?
Who makes safe space for Shiva’s Daughters?
They told me my calling was to denial.
Now, even people who claim to affirm calling
tell me I am “too.”
too damn much
How do I move beyond being
a joke, or
honoring my own pain
not just trying to swallow it?
(cause if I don’t honor it, it will kill me.)
For whom are you willing to be queen
be projected upon as. . . . .
Purging Ambiguity, Enacting Purity